Ultimately one must abandon the path to enlightenment. If you still define yourself as a Buddhist, you are not a buddha yet. See image Dzongsar Jamyang Khyentse Rinpoche
An important characteristic of calm abiding meditation is to let go of any goal and simply sit for the sake of sitting. We breathe in and out, and we just watch that. Nothing else. See image Dzongsar Jamyang Khyentse Rinpoche