My mother has always been the ...

My mother has always been the point I calibrated myself against. In knowing where she was, I could always locate myself, as well. These months she\'d been gone, I felt like I\'d been floating, loose and boundaryless, but now that I knew where she was, I kept waiting for a kind of certainty to kick in. It didn\'t. Instead, I was more unsure than ever, stuck between this new life and the one I\'d left behind.
My mother has always been the point I calibrated myself against. In knowing where she was, I could always locate myself, as well. These months she'd been gone, I felt like I'd been floating, loose and boundaryless, but now that I knew where she was, I kept waiting for a kind of certainty to kick in. It didn't. Instead, I was more unsure than ever, stuck between this new life and the one I'd left behind.
 Sarah Dessen

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