I thought of all the magazine ...

I thought of all the magazine article I\'d read on mothers who worked and constantly felt guilty about leaving their children with someone else. I had trained myself to read pieces like that and silently say to myself, \'See how lucky you are?\' But it had been gnawing at the inside, that part that didn\'t fit, that I never let myself even think about. After all, wasn\'t it a worse kind of guilt to be with your child and to know that you wanted to be anywhere but there?
I thought of all the magazine article I'd read on mothers who worked and constantly felt guilty about leaving their children with someone else. I had trained myself to read pieces like that and silently say to myself, 'See how lucky you are?' But it had been gnawing at the inside, that part that didn't fit, that I never let myself even think about. After all, wasn't it a worse kind of guilt to be with your child and to know that you wanted to be anywhere but there?

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My mother... she is beautiful, softened at the edges and tempered with a spine of steel. I want to grow old and be like her.
The best place to cry is on a mother's arms.
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That's the strange thing about being a mother: until you have a baby, you don't even realize how much you were missing one
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